Syra: ohhh my!! I'm glad you're doing better now than you were then!! I'm surprised she reached out to you at all. I guess it was a lesson learned and I think T learn things about themselves with different clients that they come across.
Good Luck if you do decide to do it again

TheRealFDeal: Honestly I figured that you were BPD. My abandonment issues are very intense as well. I told my T that I believe I'm BPD and she told me that because I've become so focused on it,that I may be making myself BPD in some aspects So basically I self diagnosed myself and she diagnosed me with HPD instead,which I will never claim

"I can't handle your BPD," wow!!that would make me feel totally rejected even though you asked,I can understand!!

Thanks for your compassion and I hope so also,its really hard for me to open up and to have to keep opening up after a rift will not be something I can deal with.
YAY!! on you finding one,I hope it works for the best!!!