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Originally Posted by adam_k
I don't think I ever disassociated then. I don't know what to make of things recently. I used to just shove everything deep down, and put a mask on for everyone. I was talking to my T about this recently. I was talking about how I used to handle things, and how I am trying to handle things now. I find it difficult to get anything done at work, and I am worried about failing some classes. Hopefully I am handling things better, but it feels like I am on a downslope. Maybe things get worse before they get better, I dunno.
Sry, I don't mean to hijack your thread with my own issues.
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No, that's cool. Disassociation is a feeling of numbness that spreads through your body. It's hard to explain. It's like I'm getting really anxious or upset one minute and the next I'm numb and most of the pain is gone. Unlike the emptiness, however, it does affect how well you think and your memory. It usually takes the sharpness out of my memory, makes me forget details, but there's been a few times where I'd had problems recalling much of anything...like the time it severely happened in the classroom. I forgot what I was teaching....in the middle of a lesson as well as my kids names. Pretty ridiculous, and that's an extreme case. It's usually not that bad.