I'm in my early 20s, I've only been on one (unofficial) date (in my whole life) and I fear I might have a problem. Whenever I get close to any physical contact that expresses 'love' I just either freeze up/ don't know how to react / behave awkwardly. I was brought up in an dysfunctional unloving family and we weren't exactly open about our (happy) feelings to one another. I went on this one 'unofficial' date where I really felt that I clicked with the guy and by the end of the night he kissed me on the cheek before I left to get on the bus home. Well after he kissed me, I basically just jumped on the bus without a word, not even looking at him or saying good night or anything...

Other than this though I also feel awkward to even hug my close friends. Sure I put my arms around them but I just feel quite socially awkward about it and my best friend did confess that I give awkward hugs. Overall I guess I'm just scared to get close to people in the fear of getting hurt. But then on the other hand, I'm already close to my friends so I'm not sure why I can't hug them properly...

I don't know why I am this way or how to overcome it, can anyone offer me some advice? Thanks in advance.