Hey Sweetie, you have so much loss and transition on your plate. I am sorry for all of the pain. You know someday maybe we can speak more about your mom's last days in a different light. If she was truly very terminal than a morphine overdose is a tricky thing to catch as we medicate to comfort at all times during the dying process. I know it feels like overdosing and I have had to speak with a dear friend hospice nurse on many occasions to clarify this in my mind and to understand that we are really not making the person die any quicker, maybe a few hours but that we are keeping that person comfortable when there is no return. I wonder if you could call your local hospice and just talk with a nurse on the phone about how you feel and what you know and try to work some of it out in your mind. I wish I could give you my friend who could see the medical records and stuff and know what probably was and did occur.

That she was taken advantage of stinks badly. However, maybe she didn't care about that as she got to be at home. I am outraged for her and for you but I am also happy that she was at home when that means so very much to many of us. Maybe she didn't know she was being exploited? Maybe she didn't care. Many of my previous clients didn't. It was a well informed trade off for them.

It is money in the end and while I know that is very important, I also know that there are higher values. your dogs, horses, relationships. I could not sell my dogs for hundreds of thousands of dollars, they are my family. I might sell my children but..... Just kidding.

I hope that what I am saying makes sense to you. P.m. if you would like and know I am thinking of you. Be well.