I think Candidog is right. Most people are hesitant towards changes in their life (especially high impacting ones), in the end, most people aren't able to go through with it for fear of the risk and it can hold them back. (i.e the higher the risk, the more hesitant we become.)

But you've taken a big step here and you should be proud of that. Someone who is able to take such an action clearly has inner strength and a will/determination to succeed. I think you're not giving yourself enough credit. Yes 'fate' might have been dealing you a 'bad hand' but perseverance is the key here. And yes things may not turn out exactly as planned but it's important to remember all of the 'good' that has come from the choices we have made. It's not necessarily about 'faith' but rather about positive thinking.

Ps. Congratulation on your job. Now live in the present and enjoy the beautiful scenery =P. All the best and good luck ~