I feel like a being of chaos more than one of order, BlueInanna. It helps me to think that is the reason why I am the way I am. I am both very destructive and very compassionate, very loving and full of hate, aggressive and complacent, completely exhausted and yet full of life. I'm always changing. This is who I am and I love myself for it (when I don't hate myself too). Destruction and creation results, I think, from the interactions of chaos and order. When chaos reigns, things are short-lived and always changing, and the world is a better place because of it.