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Originally Posted by BlueInanna
Maybe there's a reason I ruin everything around me.... Maybe it needs to be destroyed. Like the boyfriend who laughs at me and calls me stupid in front of a group of potential new friends, like the other mom I think is my friend who says wow C is really sensitive....
This is who I am! I waited on him hand and foot, I was a caring and generous lover, always trying to help build his respect around other men .... And end up called stupid for it. I suppose he's somewhat right, but I won't be stupid anymore. Caring and being kind is stupid and he will receive none further from me. What a jerk.
Fml I hate this world. "Must be nice" to not be a sensitive person. I know nothing else, cannot even fathom..
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Blue - your sensitivity is a blessing and curse. I think we feel so much more deeply than others. And we can't turn it off.
Lately I've begged my guy to "steal my heart" & help make it impervious to hurtful, hateful and cruel comments from the people who supposedly love me. He can turn his heart to stone, when needed. Sometimes I even need that steal heart for things he says.
I have found you to be one of the kindest, most understanding & genuine of friends on PC. You have given me hope and support. I'm truly sorry you are hurting and wish I had a magical words to make the pain vanish.
Lean on me, if you have to. I'm here for you.
Much
