Oh, that's soooo cute!!!! Please forgive me, L., but it's soooo cute..... (I promise I am NOT laughing).
To be honest, it never dawned on me to be frightened of puberty. I guess that's because I was in too much of a hurry to get into my first bra!
Although I really don't have anything to say (can't really; girls' experiences are so much different), I do want to let you know that I think you are brave to post this message, and incredibly self-aware for such a young man.
Since this is a process that you literally have no control over, just try to go with the flow (well, again, it's not a choice). But since you are so aware of your physiological (body) and psychological (mind) changes, try to maintain balance between logic and emotion. Going too much one way or the other can have adverse affects. The more aware you are, the better control you will gain over yourself as time goes on. This is a very important aspect of your personality that you ought to develop as you go forward through these years. You will be so much ahead of the game, if you can do this. It will also keep you out of alot of trouble that many teens your age begin to find themselves in at this stage.
Please keep posting. I would love to know how you are doing as you notice or experience each change.
And I abolutely promise that I will not say "that's soooo cute!" again. Except for that last time. In the sentence behind the last one - the one where I said "that's soooo cute!"
Stand tall, be proud, experiment with lots of different things that you are interested in and NEVER, EVER let anyone tell you that you are not smart. You got guts, kiddo, remember that!
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