not sure if this will make me feel worse or better, but I have decided to put a large portion of my reptiles up for sale... the guilt from them and the bouts of depression make it really hard to just enjoy them...

I am keeping the snake I purchased yesterday, because snakes are a bit easier to care for than the lizards, but I am putting a bunch of my lizards up... I know I will miss them, but I need to get a handle on this... it's a better alternative to self-harming over the guilt...