I don't know what's going on. For the last two weeks, whenever he's around my anxiety goes up by like three or more. I've barely been able to sit next to him, let alone sleep with him or anything. When he walks in the room I'm like a dear in headlights, and if he sits next to me I'll have to fight to keep from having an anxiety attack. I've even had to fight dissociations.

And I have no clue why!! This is the man I love I'm talking about. The man I've decided I want to spend my life with. We're living together, and planning our future together. I'm so confused why this is happening. And it's causing problems and making him think I don't love him anymore

I wish I could just get control of myself...