This is for Bill3, ~Christina, Leed and Gloom.
THANK YOU SO MUCH You guys don't know how much you are helping me and your words comforting me and giving me strength. This is the toughest moments of my life and sometimes we really do need to hear the truth spoken by outsiders, people that are not family and friends but can give us an outside objective point of view. I asked him space and time, but I am still thinking of him, and worrying that he is ok and he takes good care of himself. He sometimes goes through some depression moments and i have always been there for him, so this is hard for me..because he said i was his anchor all these years..now i feel like I gave up on him, abandoned him..
I know it's not hte truth but I am still working on "fixing" myself...and get back on track with my own life.

Thanks everybody, I truly am grateful and you don't even imagine how much.
i will keep you posted if you dont mind hearing from me again..
Lotsa love