(I can't find the trigger icon)

I will write it out:


TRIGGER

TRIGGER

TRIGGER

(negative stuff in my head; I am safe; just had a rough time with my symptoms)



I lost a favorite album tonight (music), had an interaction with Bruce and his friend. I was sure they did not want me along again on their outings. We shall see. Maybe they will.

I just spent an hour trying to fix a tape and it was a lost cause. I should have never taken it apart, but the cruddy sound just drove me nuts.

It turns out there was a knot in the tape!

Okay, so I will order it on Amazon.

But I feel like a retard.

"Cant' do nuthin' right" goes the old stuff in my head.

I dont' know when it's ever going to go away.

The rage.

The frustration.

the lack of respect I have for myself.

still calling myself names, after learning all that DBT...

And now feeling guilty about being negative.

it never ends...