Hi dear Winky ~ Bless your heart. Something is definitely "out of whack." And I know it's nothing YOU are doing wrong.

Are you in therapy? If not, talk to your medical doctor and have him refer you to a good therapist. He will know who to send you to. But you do need therapy. But first see your doctor. Hopefully he'll look you over first, to make sure everything is ok -- perhaps run some blood work, etc.

You do need to see about this my friend. And I hope you will. God bless and please keep us posted, will you? Hope to hear from you! Hugs, Lee