Darkmood I can relate to your feelings as many can because I feel them many times a week sometimes on a bad day it can be many times a day. A nurse told me to distract myself as in a big distraction. I'm just afraid that one day they will take over and that will be the end of me.Unfortunately, its down to us the person the end of the day which way they will go. I'm sorry that I dont have any answers but maybe with the right meds those very bad feelings will fade in time. Best wishes to you.