I am a nurse practitioner and I would be GLAD you came in because your symptoms were worse, esp. if you were feeling suicidal ... it is your provider's job to know how you are doing and by the way, he is PAID for it. We aren't in charge of how others feel or what they think but if your doctor chastizes you for coming in, consider going to someone else. You (and all of us) deserve respectful health care. Hope you feel better soon.