I am very very pissed off today. I just feel like telling the whole world to kiss my mother****ing *** right now. I can't seem to feel any different today and I don't feel like I am making any progress in my relationship with my friends or my family.its a lot to deal with when you feel that you're not going anywhere but staying in one dam place not moving toward in getting things accomplished or hashed out. I want some progress to occur, but I don't want to push my luck which I don't seem to have a grain of salt worth right now.

I don't want to cause or make waves anymore with both sides because in the end I feel it's just going to get blown up in my direction and ill be stuck back in square one again.

I need to make progress to get better in think and hopefully something will start moving the wheels of some sort of progress soon before I get myself so messed up I can fix it anymore or cause major damage I can't ever change in my life.