I always think people are watching me, judging me, plotting schemes against me, reading my thoughts, are possibly broadcasting them. I am always so conscious of these thoughts and often lash out at people or avoid them. It is very hard to make friends, in fact I've never had a true friend in so many years. I always seem to have a very distorted way of thinking. It's always hard to write, speak, or read coherent sentences. Always difficult to understand things the way people normally do. Always hard to concentrate and control my thoughts. My mood seems to always be random and uncontrollable. I seem to have no true identity in my personality either.

I was diagnosed a paranoid schizophrenic, but a different doctor thought it was schizoaffective disorder. What do people here think?