I'm supposed to go to the counselor in a little while. I don't want to because I don't even want to move.

I've cancelled before because I've felt I'll or just was in too much pain. Today I have hurt so bad I didn't go to work. I've just cried so much. I'm all snotted up. I wish these cymbalta would do something. I've taken two aleve liquid gel caps and three Vicodin since I got up and it still hurts. I need to clean, my house is a mess, just looking at it makes me want to die. I have piles of laundry and crap everywhere, it is just a clutter mess. I need to comb my hair, its a mess, and find a bra. I haven't eaten since I don't know when, I'm so hungry my stomach feels like it is eating itself.

I need to go to the counselor because I'm crazy as hell today. I'm so tired of it. I wish it would just let up sometimes and give me a break. I hate it. I just wish I could have a day that didn't suck. I wish I could accomplish something. I am such a douche. I need to thaw out food to cook. I don't even know what to cook, I don't even care.