Maybe look for a new doctor instead. Talk therapy is a big help but you have to feel comfortable with the person. I'm not on meds at all and have no doctor or anything. I do the best I can but often know I'm not doing as well as I have the potential for, however; I'm not fully believing that meds will help me at this point, either. But that's more of an idea that I've gotten too much worse for it than that they don't work. (They do really, really help some people a lot!)

I'm not feeling so well right now, so I don't really have much advice. But, you're not alone and just because you have a diagnosis doesn't mean you've stopped being you. There are a lot of tools tha can help like a mood tracker, learning coping techniques, and just learning to be aware of yourself, your triggers, and what symptoms are most likely to disrupt you and signal a need for help ASAP.