Dear T,

I have a feeling I am probably going to hold back when I see you this week /: I'm a bit annoyed with you for not telling me you would be off last week until the last minute...and that you let the session go longer than normal. I'm sure we could dissect that the whole time but I doubt I'll share it with you....I hate how analytical I get! I get so fing nervous that everything is blown out of proportion. Sometimes I wish I never cared about "deep" stuff and could go through life oblivious of my stupid feelings and all these fears about other people!!

I try to control everything about our time together. I know it's rather futile, but I can't seem to stop it.

Oh. And I missed you.