I'm focused on classical.

The problem now is that no matter what I do, I'm not going to have enough money to stay on meds or even eat (I have a tricky diet because of food allergies which means food either makes me sick or is going to be unaffordable).

I've done some math. If I even want to make minimum wage teaching lessons, I'd need at least 28+ students in the studio. And that doesn't even take into account that I need a space to give said lessons or drive to people's houses, meaning to make minimum wage, I'd have to teach more than 30. To make any money on publishing music, I have to self-publish, or go through a site that let's you sell downloads.

And to make to make minimum wage publishing, I estimate, I'd have to sell about 545 scores per year, if I take an even number of small and large ensemble scores. That's way beyond what anybody can sell...known or unknown...

There may be a large ensemble that may want a "resident composer", but since they're not making profit, I wonder what I'll be paid per year? Oh yeah—$0. For a job that would prevent me from doing much else than another PART-TIME job.

And I'm unqualified for any part or full time teaching jobs despite what people have told me. I'm actually unqualified for ANY job short of jobs that would hire ANYONE, even without a high school education. And I wasted 7 YEARS getting 3 degrees? Why?

So...what's the point of even pursuing plan A? Even with 2 or 3 jobs, I'll barely make minimum wage and I won't be able to purchase insurance, or medicine, or very much food. Otherwise, I should be able to survive on less than minimum wage...except that I'm sick and ALL my money would go to medical expenses/medication or I just stop take medication and going to doctors. It's not like I want to live that long anyway, especially if I'm going to spend it deciding whether I'll pay the electric bill or eat. Oh yeah, I'll have to get rid of my car too (won't be able to afford insurance/repairs). I already live minimally...skipping meals and keeping the heat off until I get really cold. Never going shopping/buying new things unless I'm lucky enough to get it as a gift. I guess I should get used to it.