I am having cognitive therapy and trying to work hard on it as I have told mu husband and kids I am doing. But it is hard to do this kind of therapy when you are so depressed you wish you were dead. I will keep trying because as we say at my inperson support group is all we can do is get up the next day and try agagin. I have Pdoc and T but don't tell them how bad I feel. It has been a year since I have been in the hospital and I want to keep it that way so I am cafefull what I say.