**ing sick of this. Not sick of having bpd so much as me letting challenges in life keep me down for so long. SMH at myself really. On the one hand, as I said to one friend this morning, "I'm such a f**ing loser, but on the other hand, if I am, it's a choice. Am I going to just give into that idea or fight it and stop doing things to make myself feel like one?

Sorry ranting.