Howdy.

Nice to officially meet you here. I think we have posted on other forum posts back and forth as well.

Abandonment...that is my biggest fear. I have done some pretty desperate things in the past in hopes of never being left. Usually didn't help or work.

I am lucky though and have been in one aspect of life and that is my hubby. We have been married now for 13 and a half years. We have known each other for over 2 decades. He's had his issues though no where near mine. I have pushed him farther than anyone else in my life and he refuses to leave me. I don't deserve him but I am thankful to hghest degree for him. I wouldn't be here on earth today if he wasn't with me. He has saved me more times than I can count.

I offer that to you as a sliver of hope that there are those out there like him. I wish you luck.