If you're not wanting to give it up, then you won't. Why is the whole question of giving it up/not a problem for you then? You can only be for or against it, it's like being "a little bit pregnant" you can't sort of want it a little bit more, any "choice" gets out of your hands. It isn't going to become any easier to give up you know; you're never going to reach a place where "it's time" -- you're just going to become ill and have horrible things done to you. Did you see the NOVA tv show, "Dying to Be Thin?" with the oldest living anorexic?

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/thin/

It's not pretty. She works through enormous pain to live so she can serve as a bad example so other girls don't do what she did.