I would really recommend going and telling your T all of this.

I was worried I would overwhelm my T. Talked about it today. He said: "I'm willing to be overwhelmed, and if I am it won't be your fault or your problem."

I am now no longer afraid of this, and glad I talked to him.

It sounds to me that you are resisting therapy as you're getting close to important stuff. I'd say it's probably really important that you keep going.