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Old Apr 23, 2013, 05:38 PM
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I am no longer going to be "understanding" about my abuser's (aunt's) issues.

I was a child, I did not deserve for her to take out her issues about my mother (her sister) or their parents on me.

I was a worthy, deserving, precious, child and I deserved love and respect.

I did not learn how to respect myself because she did not.

She took me in when she did not want to. She was angry at my mother for having me. She wanted to get back at my mother, so she adopted me to show my mother what a "better person she was" than my mother.

I paid a high price for their conflict!

I did not deserve it.

I did not deserve it!

I am thru understanding her.

I already understand.

It's like someone telling a poor kid from an alcoholic home, "Daddy beats you cause he drinks." The child still did not deserve to be beaten!

I made up my mind.

Carol comes first for validation from me.

Not my aunt!

I was innocent and I did not deserve it.

Carol
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