Thanks sewerrats.
My Aids phobia started when I was really young. My mom had a hysterectomy in '85 & had hemoragged and recieved 11 units of donor blood & soon after, you started hearing about Elizabeth Glaiser on the news & how she, along with her son, were in infected by donor blood. My mom had to be tested every 4 months for 2-3 years before she was cleared. I was 4 years old at the time. Then my moms freakishly religous brother told me that if I kissed my gay uncle on the cheek that I could get the "fag disease". My uncle didnt have it but being so young I didnt understand. I thought all gay men had it. So I would stay awake at night in fear that I had become infected cause my uncle was (stil is) my best buddy & I kissed him all the time. Since then, there hasnt been a sexual relationship that didnt send me into Aids panic. My doctor has a policy that when you first see her, you get tested for all stds amd Hiv. I explained to her this phobia, and she said safe sex is always the best route but just in case you have unprotected sex, that they are finding out more everyday about the transmission of the. virus and the it is transmitted at a rate of a 2% chance out of 1000 male/female exposures. Although a woman can pass it easier than a man. I dont know why. I guess periods or something play a role in that. Im just all messedd up in the head these days. I hope this post made some sense. My thoughts are so scrambled and racing anymore. I cant think straight.