Thank you for your kindness Kimmy.

It's hard to comprehend why/how there's a RIGHT time for someone to "get" something, something that is damaging in their life. You'd think it should happen right after or near after the fact-- for preservation sake, odd how it doesn't work that way though........

Your respect is much appreciated-- especially as my anxiety gradually escalates with the idea of opening up by sharing an inner thought

At the same time though, it gives me a kind of warm feeling to know some understand this so well, reinforces the idea trying to "blossom" in my mind that being abused as a child doesn't mean I'm a bad person-- as others that experienced abuse aren't bad-- so why would being an awful person only pertain to me....... it could be that I'm like many others-- NOT bad-- just hurt, scared and doing my best on this ever winding path of life.

and that puzzle piece--well, think I put it in it's proper place.

mandy