Mr.V, I totally feel for you. It is hard to follow your heart and follow your brain. Why did god give u hormones, a mind and a heart. They all function together well unless they are at war w/ each other. I know it feels crazy for you.

I don't see you as a rapist or pervert. You are human w/ youth on your side which leads to hormone issues. I used to be like you and not want to mention sexual anything to anyone. Until I came here to PC. I have not even been here a year. I am 38 for crying out loud and have 3 kids. But I cover my face w/ a pillow when I talk to the T about sexually related stuff.

This forum has helped me think outside the box. 6 mo ago I would have never in a MILLION years mentioned anything about my sex life. OMG the thing I have commented about on here, I can't beleive it was really me. There are things I wish you didn't know about my sexuality. (if you choose to look around this forum some it would scare you, Big Mama does what)

You are not alone in thinking about having two accounts here. So that people will not know that the person posting certin q's are really you. I have thought about that. I can hardley manage one account though. And I would feel really dishonest to.

Reguarding the girl mentioned, I'd leave her alone. How weird would it be if a friendship was ruined because of trying to make it more then a friendship. That is the kind of answer that cost me friendship oppertunities though. So you might not want to follow my adivce on that one. Thats what I would do. The realistic thing would be to do what soups said. Go for it. But being a realist, the harsh reality is a friendship might be lost due to that choice. IDK what to do. I know that his has not exactly been advice. I just want you to know you are not alone in your struggles. People who visit this forum are very VERY open. Hang around a bit and respond every now and again and you might feel a little more comfortable.