I hope all will be well with me when I go back to work next week, but of course I'm concerned about the potential fallout because now all the big bosses know about my MH issues. I disclosed to my immediate supervisor last summer when I had a manic episode that I couldn't hide, but the upper echelon didn't know about it until I went out on medical leave a couple of weeks ago.

TBH, I think my days in nursing in general and this job in particular are numbered; I do not seem to be able to deal with the anxiety and stress, and I'm really disappointed with myself for that. But I'm already on multiple medications---why do I need to eat lorazepam tablets like Skittles just to get through a day?? When is enough, enough?