My pdoc refuses to give me any antianxiety medication. Because I have a history of "addiction" - I smoked weed for 10 years. I've quit now. There are times where I wish he would just prescribe me something, I know I need it and I know I won't abuse it. Even considering changing pdocs because of it.

I found that lamictal helped moderately with my rage/aggression. But, when riperidone was added, things really improved. I highly recommend the combo.

Risperidone is beneficial for, and has helped me with: aggression, irritability, agitation, obsessive/worry thoughts, racing mind, anxiety (to a certain extent), insomnia and, for me, the most important thing at the moment, emotional intensity.

In people who don't struggle with the above I can see how it would turn them into zombies. But for us BPDs, it's a real life saver.

I am so much calmer nowadays. My short fuse has almost disappeared entirely. For example, I would get into some sort of road rage altercation almost every time I got in my car. Everything ticked me off and pushed me over the edge. These days, it's very rare for anything to get to me.

Definitely worth discussing with your pdoc.