Thanks y'all for the responses.
The situation I listed is just one of many...I think of things in my past that I did and I just shake my head and think "what the hell was I thinking" or "why in God's name did I do THAT?"
And quite often I wonder if I am the only one who actually remembers it...like if would call some of those involved and asked about it would they go....nope, don't remember that at all or would they say that I was a moron then and remember it like yesterday.
Either way, with the info I have now I will process it all differently and not take myself so seriously!
THANKS SO MUCH!