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Originally Posted by jadzea
This is my question to you - do you want to spend the rest of your life having to watch what you say so you do not "set him off"? A good relationship is one where you can be honest, open and yourself and not worry. I'm not sure you have that kind of relationship.
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Jadzea, thank you for your reply and your question. I do want to clarify that he didn't yell or get angry but just honestly told me how what I said made him feel. He has been open since day one about his trust issues, and it is something I knew I would need to be patient in and that it would take time for him to get to know me and be able to trust me. No, I do not want a life of having to watch what I say more than what is normal (as I do think we should be respectful to those we love, and though we should always be ourselves and be honest, we should try to do it in a way that isn't hurtful). We do have a honest and open relationship, hence the conversation we had about how he felt, and I told him how I felt in response. He told me he doesn't want me to feel like I have to walk on egg shells, but just that he wanted me to know how what I said made him feel when I said it. And I could see his side of it after he explained it, and he saw my side in that I wasn't trying to control him or make him feel guilty, but said it in a more playful and joking manner. We called it a "learning experience" in the relationship and have decided to move forward. As much as we communicate and have told one another, we are very close, so it's hard to remember that it has only been six months and therefore there is much more to learn about one another and the relationship. My struggle is in suddenly wondering if he can grow to trust me or if he will continually look for a reason not to trust me because of the fear he has of loving me and trusting me and then me hurting him the way he has been hurt many times. That is probably an unfair question for this forum, though, now that I realize it. One, because it probably is different from one person/situation to another. And two, because it can most likely only be answered by time. I can't expect six months to erase his whole life experience with the women around him, but I also don't want five years to pass and still be in a place where he hasn't grown to know me well enough to know I'm not them. And yes, we've talked about this. I was just reaching for outside, unbiased, and maybe even professional relationship advice. :P