I called her once and attempted to cancel because of some huge emotions I had been confronting in my writing, but whatever her response was I don't even recall (she sees right through my b.s.) made me say something like "um, well, just ignore me see you at 10" and I was so glad afterwards that I had gone after all. I remember that day going in there and telling her I don't WANT to be here right now but I think I NEED to be here so help" or something like that.