Well definitely express that to your pdoc. Every place is different for what they will hospitalize for. I remember one time being forced into hospitalization for a med adjustment but hear many tales of people being actively suicidal and still being turned down for inpatient. I understand your frustration though. I kind of want to say screw it and go inpatient right now since I'm not sure I can handle being started on meds outside when it takes so long to see a difference.

Try to poke around this website and others so you can learn more about managing your dx and what meds could do.

And remember: you are not defined by your diagnosis. You are still a person.