Thank you Amee for your thoughtfully written post. I know it was written with good intentions. I don't refer to my feelings for T as a "crush" although I suspect he may refer to it that way in speaking to his friends. I'm not saying you are his friend but it is funny you used the word crush as I know he described it that way to a mutual acquaintance of ours. I like how your T explained to you that it was not a rejection. Although T may say that it is against the rules, I know other people have had relationships with their T so it is possible. I feel very rejected.