Hi. I am 8weeks. This pregnancy was completely unexpected.. I have a 5 yr old.. I gave up custody because I already have a hard time figureing myself out.. I have her every other weekend.. I always worry that she will end up having bpd as well I am scared that any child I have will suffer from this. I am a good mom.. And I have drastically improved in they last 3 years with no major out breaks and self mutilation.. I have been feeling more crazy lately.. I have already lashed out at my bf... it has not been easy so far.. I am scared that they stress and panic I am feeling is affecting my unborn child negatively.. I am afraid that my baby will be bpd... I am scared about alot of things