"I can't help it but to feel like your weren't there. Am I getting the wrong idea?!
I wonder if you felt confortable and actually playing a part in everything, and if so, What did you think/feel when you guys were in the store? Or did you think getting married was something you wanted to do? When?
I've been married for 8 years and even though, I'm happily married, I have a great husband/friend/lover/companion; you have to be really want to be with someone.
I hope you can find the real answers to your questions.
hang in there"...

Do you mean was I emotionally there? Yes, I was...I was thinking how surprised I was that it was actually happening, and I was very happy...I freaked out because he called the next day and said he wanted to wait (but for 3 years?!). I didn't know what to think.

I'm still in school, getting my masters, so I want to wait until I am done with the academic part and starting my internship to get engaged (which is about 7 months)...

He has been with me through a lot, honestly...He somehow put up with the PTSD, my being unable to drive for months, coming with me to have medical tests done because I got physically ill from the stress, etc. I was with him (dating him) all through college, finals, high stress ( I was premed)

...When we broke up after college he became my best friend. What threw both of us was when it started getting romantic again...We did not see it coming, so I think it was a shock.

I guess it's just weird because he really appears to be freaking out.