im a very flat person but its just how my mother raised me. in my family we were not allow to show much emotion. my mom and dad thought it was a sign of weakness and practically beat it out of me and my siblings. that is what me and my therapist are working on now. shes trying to reteach me that its ok to show emotion. naturally im a bubbly person but only on the inside. i know it probly isnt the same thing ur going through but i know how it feels.