I'm overjoyed you've had ah-ha moments
But I'm not there yet- my so called relationship is very different. Why does he not show affection as I would like, I feel uncherished, neglected, unimportant to him. Maybe I am. And the hating him then missing him, thinking maybe I understand him... Ugh no I'm not there yet. He plain and simple doesn't treat me how I want and needs to be dumped with the trash, he's a dickhead and I hate him. Who the f am I when I get all weird jealous needy like this. It confuses the hell out of me! I don't want to hate people is it him or me with the problem... Am I just the stupid crazy girl of the town who should be lucky anyone dates me... See how nuts that is just horrible self esteem. Love is torture why do I keep trying.