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Originally Posted by BlueInanna
I'm overjoyed you've had ah-ha moments 
But I'm not there yet- my so called relationship is very different. Why does he not show affection as I would like, I feel uncherished, neglected, unimportant to him. Maybe I am. And the hating him then missing him, thinking maybe I understand him... Ugh no I'm not there yet. He plain and simple doesn't treat me how I want and needs to be dumped with the trash, he's a dickhead and I hate him. Who the f am I when I get all weird jealous needy like this. It confuses the hell out of me! I don't want to hate people is it him or me with the problem... Am I just the stupid crazy girl of the town who should be lucky anyone dates me... See how nuts that is just horrible self esteem. Love is torture why do I keep trying. |
You're not nuts C, but love can be torturous at times yes, it causes so many inner conflicts because your thought processes and emotional reactions rarely match the general idea you have yourself, its very contradicting and tiring
You keep trying because you're resillient and hungry for answers.
If bf doesn't meet your basic needs after you have communicated them, I would strongly suggest rethinking the relationship. People in our lives all have roles to fullfill, and a principal cast member cannot go around acting like an "extra", its just unfair and selfish....
You wil have plenty ah ha moments of your own, you are taking great strides to achieve this, PLUS I saw it in my crystal ball!
