I picked my sponsor because she has depression and is on meds and is sober a long time. Also I liked her. But she asked me to write down my meds and let her psychologist friend take a look at them. Today she said all meds were fine except the Lorazepam. She said it is like solid alcohol and could be triggering my system into alcohol relapse. She said she was not a dr and wasn't telling me what to do but that I need to ask my pdoc if there is anything else I could take.

I want to keep my lorazepam. I don't abuse it. I have panic and gad and I think I would not be as stable without it. Seroquel is awful for me. My sponsor suggested that one but I can't take it. She wants me to talk to my pdoc but I don't want to. He already knows about the alcohol problem. I was up front with him. But I had not relapsed the last time I saw him.

I am annoyed. I know she is trying to help but if she had seen me on the way to the psyche ward in Feb. she would not take the lorazepam away. I was psychotic with panic and mania. And I was completely sober a year at that point.

Is there any truth to benzos creating a craving for alcohol?