Dear T,

I am sorry for pushing you away and told you that i wanted to stop working with you. I sayd that because i felt a shamed of being in a crisis and that i was admitted. I am sorry that i didnt want to talk with you on the phone.
You sayd you will not leave me because you care about me and you think i also care about you. You are right, i do care. Its only to much for me, you seeing me like this....i wish i could be stable again and telling you how good everything is going...

I want to tell you i feel a bit better, i got more energy and eating better i try hard to do my best. I know you know that.