hey hankster sending you some hugs (love hugging Crabby friends) sorry about cramps.. whats going on??? you OK?? sounds like something big time triggered you.

i don't mind all the advice, support, and love at all. i am way confused about all this new information from my report cards. kind of think i should not have read them .but i found them in the mothers cedar chest .it is making me look at things differently. I cant ever remember talking much in school or misbehaving to the extent one teacher seemed to suggest. but why would she lie. i also find it fascinating to find i did talk a lot .to much it seems and i wonder if all the humiliation and punishment for this is why i stopped and all this was before i can remember my behaviors . it is interesting as well as terrifying to look at and see. I'm just scared my T will follow suit as soon as all this new stuff comes to her attention with these records she is looking for.