That completely makes sense. That is a better way to put how I feel too. Alone...yet surraounded by people. And, I'm trying not to be morbid or depressing, but I blame myself for this. Somebody once told me to love my own company more than anyone else's. After 41 years I'm still working on thlso it is tiring to wear different masks all the time - this is me at work, this is me being relaxed with a friend, this is me sleeping on the sofa to avoid an argument with my wife, this is me on the phone with my mother talking but not really saying anything important. Then I go grocery shopping and see couples and families, and convince myself their lives are better than mine...and that I know someday I will die alone in a nursing home. Th re ...that's how I feel. I think I'm depressed..even though I go through the motions every day pretty well.