Thanks.

Today again she was asking questions in my head I felt like telling her to "shut up"
I know that to start recovering I need to open up and I really do want to but how do I do this? I feel like I am being pathetic, T said today that I have very low self esteem and that I have suffered emotional abuse throughout life, I just don't know where to begin.

She has put my name forward for group therapy to build my self esteem (she runs it) This is a scary thought.