This is my first post here, but I need some advice.

For starters, I am the Adult Child of 2 Narcissistic Parents that lost a brother to suicide last year (apparently he couldn't deal with the stress of our childhood). I have been in therapy for the past year and though he's wonderful, financial issues are making it so that I am going to have to quit therapy.

Here's the short version of my issue: I have met an absolutely amazing person and I am TOTALLY FREAKING OUT!!!!! ...to the point that I think I am going to sabatoge the relationship due to my own issues. He's AMAZING... sweet, kind, attentive... TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE basically.

I have avoided relationships like the plague because I HATE this back and forth feeling. I'm all warm and fuzzy one moment, then waiting for him to dump me the next.

I struggle with feelings of being "good enough" and fearing he's going to leave me. I know that if I show him this side of me it will be a total turn off, so I try to keep it to myself, but the internal conflict is driving me bananas.

Part of me just wants to call this thing off before I get hurt or "in too deep", but then the lonely part of me says stick around. What do I do? I don't want to chase the guy off (and according to my father, the only place a man cares about a woman's feelings is below her waist), but I'm so afraid he's gonna "find me out" and dump the clingy, crazy chick. HELP!!!!