Dear Pink & Grey:

God bless you with all that you're going through right now. I feel so bad for you and in part can empathize with you. Though I have never experienced in full what you're going through right now and hope you are soon able to find calm and peace of mind. I pray you can continue to hang in there. My advice is to see if you can move-up your doctor's appointment to as soon as possible. Let the office know you're near having a breakdown and need help immediately. Maybe one of the other docs in the office can help you. Maybe your doc can find time to squeeze you into a time today or tomorrow to see him/her. Do you have any Xanax or Ativan or similar type of sedative that can help to calm you down? Maybe even over the counter Benadryl that relax you -- but be aware it can make you very drowsy. You're going through a very rough period right now. Is there a family member of good friend you can talk to right now? If necessary, call a crisis hotline in your area just to talk to someone to get it all out. Just talking to someone will greatly calm you down and relieve the horrible feelings you have right now. It sounds like you need to make some calls: the doctor (even a general practitioner/family doctor), and friend or family member for support. You need some help fast. It'd suggest you get someone else get your kids from school and to take your daughter to to soccer practice. I would try to get some sleep right now if you can do it. The Benedryl can help with that. First things first, get yourself taken care of right now then follow-up with getting help from a doctor to find out what's going on and getting the medicine and other help a doctor can give you. Hang in there! Be positive you'll get through this and and faith and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. More than anything cling on to hope. I don't know if you're spiritual or religious or not, but now might be a good time to pray. I don't know what else to say. Let us know how things go for you.