It really sounds like you're in a big depressed cycle right now and those can be so brutal. The good news is, cycles don't last forever and eventually turn around.

I agree with Moose. Sometimes you have to force yourself to 'activate.' Try to push through. Facing your fear often shows you have nothing to really be afraid of sometimes. Like the saying goes, bravery isn't the absense of fear but facing your fear.

There's no need to be ashamed to need help from a doctor or a T. It's okay to be "discovered," because you can get help. that's what they are there for. Everyone needs help soemtimes that's okay.